I feel so horrible. I had the most unbearable 5hr nap of my life this afternoon. All i could think about was you, & that’s when it finally hit me. I realised that up till the moment you walk through those gates, i hadnt accepted reality. I didnt allowed myself to accept the fact that you’re leaving again. Not till i was left alone in my room, on that empty bed, and not till then, my emotions overwhelmed me. I am so alone. Nothing beats having you around. You’re anything and everything to me. All i need is you, but now that you left, it’s gonna take time for me to pick myself up again. Having you by my side every single day for the past 3 months had been more than i could ask for. We did everything that we wanted to do together, and it was amazing. Nothing is gonna be the same without you. Cos now, i dont have you to go home to anymore. We’re back to skype, bbms and phone calls, and it just really sucks. Nothing beats having you around. You’re my pillar of strength, you’re an amazing boyfriend gerard (: Till you’re by my side again, i’ll be missing and loving you always..