Isn’t it scary? Life. Everything is so uncertain. The littlest thing makes you insecure. What more, with the distance. I’m afraid. I really am. I can’t get a grip of myself. I can’t get a grip of us. The thought of it, really scares me. I don’t know what to do. Just 5 more weeks to go. Why can’t time pass faster. All these waiting and uncertainties are slowly killing me. How do I put this, how do I  put this across to you? Am I really demanding too much? Why does it feel like you couldn’t care less about us anymore? Do I really mean so little to you? Did the distance really do this? Make you take us for granted? Is it really too much to ask for? What if i walk away? Will you stop me? I’m tired. I just want you home.