Why is it so tough sometimes?
sigh.
I Miss Us.
Why is it so tough sometimes?
sigh.
“Nobody loves me the way you do.” When was the last time you even said that to me?
Why ain’t it the same anymore? I wish I cared less.
I’m trying my best to be strong, that kind that you want me to be. But remember, i’ll always still be fragile inside.
Don’t forget to remember.
Why is it that i feel like i’m not a part of this picture anymore? It scares me, it really does. You’re so different. You never felt this different before. You don’t accept my flaws, you don’t try to make me happy anymore. Is this how being taken granted for feels like?
Ambivalence.
Nights like this.. even words can’t explain it right. It’s really sad to know that sometimes you think so little of me. How insensitive can you be? I’ve the rights to feel how I want to, I’ve the rights to that, dont I? Why don’t you see it, I’m not trying to control anything here. But it’s because of what you did, it reflects on you, on how you feel about well…stuff. See, I told you, even words can’t explain it. It’s your attitude towards the whole issue. I don’t know what to say. I hate change, I really do. Why dont you see it?
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♥♥♥
I Miss Us.
Isn’t it scary? Life. Everything is so uncertain. The littlest thing makes you insecure. What more, with the distance. I’m afraid. I really am. I can’t get a grip of myself. I can’t get a grip of us. The thought of it, really scares me. I don’t know what to do. Just 5 more weeks to go. Why can’t time pass faster. All these waiting and uncertainties are slowly killing me. How do I put this, how do I put this across to you? Am I really demanding too much? Why does it feel like you couldn’t care less about us anymore? Do I really mean so little to you? Did the distance really do this? Make you take us for granted? Is it really too much to ask for? What if i walk away? Will you stop me? I’m tired. I just want you home.
Distance.
Priorities. Disappointments. Heartbreaks. Torture. Death.
